My achy, breaky body . . .

Normally I am not one to share of my physical ailments . . . just because I don't want to seem like a chronic complainer, and I don't want people to just see me for my disability. But I've just gotta say how awful this week has been for my fibromyalgia pain, which has been widespread throughout my body. It's hard for others to recognize that I am having a tough time, probably because I try not to wear my feelings on my sleeve, and I try not to complaint too much. But MAN . . . having this chronic pain is just the pits, for sure!!!!!!!! I was doing really well weaning myself down to only 2 of my heavy pain pills (controlled substances) a day, but I'm working myself back up to several a day (and that's in addition to all my other pills).

It's hard to say what the reason behind it is . . . whether it be weather . . . or a vitamin D deficienty again, that means taking 50,000 IU a week again . . . or coming down from the stress during the icy period.

I have also had trouble again with my focus and concentration again, where I jump from task to task, and don't seem to accomplish many!

I have joined a pool club at a physical therapy clinic in Fayetteville, which I can go to 5 days a week, from 11:30 - 1:30. I made it there on Tuesday . . . but just couldn't manage it yesterday nor today. Perhaps tomorrow, with the 60 degree sunny day will get me feeling better about gong in.

Karl said that he was talking to a co-worker the other day about people who suffer chronic pain . . . and how the suicide rate is high. I know that when I'm real bad, I have trouble just motivating myself to get up and showered . . . and then to try to accomplish at least one thing a day in the home. And it does seem better to handle sometimes rather than others.

i just had to spout it out . . . not for pity or any other reason . . . just had to get it out of my system!! :0)